You came , You Disappeared .

I always believe that whenever the rain falls down , it will wash my pain away . Whenever the rain drops , I feel like I'm healing but when the sun rise up on me , everything came back . The pain , the sorrow . Everything . Why do I have to face this all over again ? You healed me for a while and you patched up the hole in my heart . Now it's torn apart again . I feel nothing . I feel no sadness or even happiness . Tried to cry but theres no more tears left . I'm all dried up . You came and then you left . And act like nothing happend at all . At times I care for you , you left . At times I needed you to be there , you walked away . I'm not a toy please understand that . I'm a human being I have feelings . Why do you do this to me all the time ? After all the things you put me through but still I come right back . The decisions you keep making , you just think about all yourself and never me at all . My feelings doesn't concern you . I keep coming back because I know you needed me . But now it seems like you don't need me around anymore. I promised I'll be there no matter what but atleast give me something for me to keep what I promised to you . I won't beg you to stay , if your determined to leave I will not stay in your way . But I know you'll be back again , cause you know in your heart whenever you call me I'll be there . Don't feel annoyed when I cared to much , worry when I start not to care at all . Don't bother to come searching for me when I'm gone and not in this world cause clearly you don't even care when I'm still alive in this world . So please , do appreciate me while I'm still here .