Dear Old Friend

I am scared to walk away cause I know you won't chase me . But at the same time I'm hurt for staying right now . I stayed because you asked me to do so and I stayed because I want to do so . You don't know how amazing it feels to re-connect with you . For months you've been gone and I only can watch you by far and suddenly you came back . I can never describe that feeling to you my old friend . But now you're keeping your distance with me and I feel invisible . To tell you the truth it sucks . I feel there is no benefit for me here stay for you . I feel useless and unwanted to be there even I know you asked for it . Now I don't know wether you want me to be there or you don't . One thing about you , you have that huge ego of yours and it's hard for me to read you . You are Unpredictable . Sometimes what we feel and what we say , it ain't the same . If you want me to stay , make me usefull a lil bit . Let me help you , or guide you . Let me feel your pain and share with me what you're going through . That is what friends are for . Dear old friend , I know who you are , I know you so well and trust me there's no one knows you better than I do . I'm not gonna walk away and I will always be there. As always , if you need anything you know where to find me .